a whole new year

there is so much going on. its crazy! where to start? ohhhh well it is monday, first day of spring 2011 semester started here at Lake Superior College, I am taking Ceramics 1, General Psychology and Composition 2.

I am so excited for Ceramics though. Anyways, my holiday break was great. I worked at Old Navy. Went home for christmas and new years. got to see family :)

Now what is new? I don't work at Old Navy anymore. i was only seasonal, but they said i could have a job for any other seasonal times they need it sooo future job spot? i think?  score! I have also decided to fill out the camp application to the art camp out in california :-D YAY! i am planning on filling the application out tomorrow.

ahhh the joys of being an adult. having to take care of yourself when sick. not the most fun. but it must be done! alright time for a photo club meeeting more updating later!

tis christmas!

Also it is my mother's birthday today. yay! my brother is in town. for how much i love him. i sure hate when he is around all the time. i hate his smart ass humor. he always one ups me but i guess that is what brothers are for ehh? oh well. its almost a new year!
i am seriously getting my light straightened out and on a good path! school, work stuff, and personal stuff. woohoo.

i can't wait to start DJ-ing at KUWS its gonna be kickass! :) transfering in a year cant wait! phew. i am so happy for what/who is in my life lately they have made it all 100% better. It was sure great to see my Dad's family today. and my Mom's family next weekend. :) yay.
i need to do a more in depth blog soon. tons to say! but time to drink and be happy. its christmas and moms birthday! no more cranky lori. and possiable a skype date later with the one and only jordan lilly :-D i love that girl. i seriously would hitch hike to cali just to see her. ahhh! okay time to go drink more and play games!

x

hmmm.

alright so i am pretty much in love with this music video! was listening to this song like all day with a friend, but then decided to watch the music video tonight when i got home, seeing the music video makes me love the song 100% more yo!

What is new???

oh i really want to get plugs ( not that big though!) I am seriously thinking about it. hmmm what would my mother think? haha. i know she has not like my piercings or tattoos so far.

Man i am seriously still in the mode of just wanting to pick up and move! maybe for like a year? EAST COAST! HELLO! i am starting to save money for this mission! who wants to come?!?! hehe.

Alright I forgot how badly i love nicotine and caffeine! yes, it is true i started smoking again. and coffee, i have always drank coffee.

well, today i got enough pictures for my final photography project this semester. I am excited to start editing them this weekend!

Well i gotta work tomorrow. I am still loving work, ATTENTION EVERYONE, appreciate how the jeans are set up at Old Navy, it is not easy to do plan-o-grams which is the system we use. it is confusing and frustrating!!! bahhhh! alright this is all i have for now. well actually not, i got a huge rant i want to do but, i think it is too risky to put on here :/ ohh noo...hello written journal! ohh i am happy to say that i have started my second notebook :-D

alright enough ramblings for now.

P!nk - Raise Your Glass

LOVE LIFE!

"Lovelife"

Individually wrapped, placed in neat little rows

Becoming A piece, of everything that grows

Some numbers, A name, to indicate you played the game

Came empty handed and left the same

A soul is A soul and A shell is A shell

The border in between is full of everything you felt

Some cling to A cross because they're tired and lost

They leave it up to the weather to measure the cost

And everytime I look within I recognize the darkness

Familiar to the image of the artist

Staring at the bathroom mirror in A strangers apartment

Can't remember her name, don't remember how I got here

But here I am, thinking about death again

Humbles out the stress, helps the breath get in

I need to check my friends as well as my next of kin

To let them know I love them all to the end

And when the soul begins to reap, I think she'll know me from the sleep

I keep caught in the corner of my bloodshot eyes

And if she has the nerve, to let me dump a couple last words

I'm gonna turn to the earth and scream "Love your life!"

Love your life, quite cliche but I guess thats me

A ball of pop culture with some arms and feet

As discrete as I've tried to keep the drama and cancer

It's no secret I hunger for someone to feed the answers

I never expected a bowl of cherries

I'm just a virgo trying to find my own version of the virgin mary

And when I let them carry me to a cemetary

I wanna be buried with a pocket full of clarity

[Chorus]

Now, how many times must you prove you're an angel

How many more demons do you have to strangle

How much longer must you remain in this dream

Before I finally figure out if you're insane or a genius

How many times must you prove you're an angel

How many more demons do you have to strangle

How much longer must you remain in this dream

Before I finally figure out if you're insane or a genius

Let no tears to fall from none of y'all

Just remember it all, the beauty as well as the flaws

L-O-V-E L-I-F-E

Here lies Sean, finally free

And as I look across the sea I smile at the sun

While it feeds the weeds the nutrition they need

The people still breathe, the city still bleeds

I'm going to love it to death and keep planting my seeds

I'm going to love it to death and keep an eye on the seeds

I'll be in love till im dead, I keep reaching the seeds

I'll give all I got left just to teach you to read

Love life to the death and keep planting my seeds

And when the soul begins to reap, I think she'll know me from the sleep

I keep caught in the corner of my bloodshot eyes

And if she has the nerve, to let me dump a couple last words

I'm gonna turn to the earth and scream (Love your life)

[Chorus]

LOVELIFE [x16] 

I just want to say I LOVE THAT SONG! for reals... anyways let's see what is new with me? my parents just left to go back to the cities today. It was great to see them. yeah it was a bit awkward I guess cause I didn't talk with them about everything i wanted to. Oh well. :[ 

I got to go shopping good deals at work!! :-D i love the stuff i got! I gotta hem my new cords i got. 

But i got some of my christmas gifts bought, yay! 

wow i am in such an indifferent mood for some reason hmmmmm. 

work is going well. sucky news though gotta work christmas eve :( lame sauce! 

However, i did get some cute christmas cards to send out, they are more geared towards my camp friends  ( HEHE SERIOUSLY) it rocks! 

I need to kick myself in the butt and go to the doctor seriously whatever is going on with me i think is either taking a bad toll on me, or well i am not sure. 

I need to get my butt in gear with a lot of things!  

I really have an urge to do hemp right now. so i will probably finish this post up and go make something. 

Ahhh what to do this week, work, get my photography homework done. and ummm. whatever else pops up! 

well imma go chill. 

later. 

The More Boys I meet........

So everything has been going good this week. Bill, this guy i have been talking to for like  a year, asked me out to go see a movie. and i finally said yes to the guy. now its saturday ( day of the date) and i texted him asked him what the plan is and such. no response. I asked him whats going on? and still nothing. I have been stood up. WTF... i am over it. actually. no i am not. its a slap in the face. seriously. I have not had a relationship for like 3 or 4 years now. is the right guy just running away from me or something? Lately i have been wanting to move out to the east coast, and seriously right now I wish i could just buy a plane ticket and leave....yeah just pack up what all is important to me and leave the midwest. I am so sick of it here. It is like a black hole just sucking me in further and further it seems like. I have dreams i want to fullfill. I should just go do them. 

Living in an area like that, would just be amazing. seriously. 

I know i have come far from where i used to be. but there are just more problems that are coming. it sucks. when can life just be happy and carefree?? wait.... NEVER. blah. sucky. 

I am going to go watch a movie do some hemp, maybe try to go out and smoke something. who knows. I am just pissy right now. fuck this. I just want a new life sometimes. and right now seems like a good opportunity. Ha i know how "emo" sad or whatnot i sound. but i am just upset in the moment. and need to let it out. time to listen to some music to help get me in a better mood. hopefully. 

gahhhh. 

November18th 2010

someone did not just say that "commenting on statuses"(on facebook) is talking all the time? what a huge joke. are you for real?!?! blahhhh. such a dissapointment, yes its a form of communication do not get me wrong on that, but its kinda pitty its coming down to facebook for everything. i mean. we do almost everything on there. Okay i lost my train of thought. on to different topic...



tonight was good. well just the day it started off with...

jamie(aka raku) and i getting mexican food at Little Angies.....

headed to the mall...

got some stuff sorted out at old navy, bought new coat and jeans....

went to some other shops got some new things.... 

went back to jamies....

and then headed over to aziza's well to hang out :) 

now back at the dorm writing this! 



totally ADHD right now. i can't finish one thought. 

hmmm. 

oh Steromood.com


umm best website ever!!! i love it you gotta check it out! ASAP! any kinda mood or feeling they should got it. 
good for nights like this. 
there i go loosing my thoughts. oh well time to lollygag through the inter-web. and find some cool findings.




Last thought : i love Green ;-D